Going Bald, My Story
Dear sisters in Christ,
These pictures are extra special because I struggled with the idea of posting them. I was torn between feeling scared of being vulnerable but at the same time wanting to boldly share it with the world as to why I went bald! We haven't shared much about our personal lives so I thought I'd write a little about what led up to this big decision.
As far back as I can remember, I had always been a part of a deeply broken home. As a child, I was hurting so much on the inside that I found a way to get the attention I desired through my outer appearance.
Fitness, fashion, hair and makeup became my whole reason for existence! Before school each morning I took at least 2 hours to get in shape and create a picture-perfect image. If I woke up late, forget it, I refused to go to school. As soon as I became an adult, I discovered body modification which took things to a whole new darker level of acquiring attention.
Over the years I added cigarettes, drugs and alcohol to accessorize all of these ever-changing personas. Before I knew it, I was on a downward spiral into abusive relationships and addiction. Whether positive or negative, I would feed off of any kind of attention I could get.
At the age of 47, I was a full-blown atheist addict. Then, through an overdose, a door was opened; a veal lifted; an opportunity to choose either Life or death. That night, I accepted Jesus Christ into my heart. Soon after, I started praying and reading the Bible daily, then that turned into multiple times a day. Little by little I started to change...a new me was emerging. My outer appearance was no longer a meaning of existence. I now had Someone else to edify other than myself.
Over a 2 year period I shed my old skin. It all began with tossing out the razors..yep, hairy pits and legs! Next, no more bleaching or coloring my hair. Then I got rid of 95% of my wardrobe. Makeup was next, then perfumes. No more plucking eyebrows. Body jewelry removed. I also, removed all music, art and even friends that these personas were associated to.
I did cry often as I rid myself of these pieces of vanity. It was not easy at first because for 47 years I had been so programmed by wordly ways and thought that I needed these temporary (some permanent) bandaids to live life. But specific verses would continuosly be shown to me (1 Peter 3:3-4 & 1 Timothy 2:9-10). The conviction became just so great to where I needed to stop doing things my prideful way and just submit to His way! Now, I only had an audience of One and that's all that really mattered anymore.
But wait, there's more...I am now 49 and the biggest and hardest of the obstacles was still left...my hair!!! At the time of my salvation, I had already been growing dreadlocks for several years. They were again, part of a persona that I had developed while being part of the music industry. It was time to shave my husband's head and I had been toying with the idea of shaving my head for many months. I just kept struggling with letting go of this last part of the old me...it was my final mask and was frightened to make the final leap into, what I thought would be, weakness. Thank God my husband has always been so supportive and urged me to just finally get rid of my past. So zip, off the locs went! I did cry for a brief moment, not because of cutting them off but from when I touched my bald scalp I felt so free! It was finished! Praise the Lord, the old me was finally put to rest!
So there you have it...if you earnestly seek the Lord with all your might, submit, truly want to change from your past ways, ask for His forgiveness and He will give you all the strength needed to break the chains that bind you! There are just not enough words to express the way that I feel now but 3 words come to mind, "peace & true joy!" Thank you God for giving me a second chance! YOU are so beautiful...YOU are now my whole meaning for existence! I love YOU my God, my King!
Thank you for reading,
April, a humble servant of Christ
As far back as I can remember, I had always been a part of a deeply broken home. As a child, I was hurting so much on the inside that I found a way to get the attention I desired through my outer appearance.
Fitness, fashion, hair and makeup became my whole reason for existence! Before school each morning I took at least 2 hours to get in shape and create a picture-perfect image. If I woke up late, forget it, I refused to go to school. As soon as I became an adult, I discovered body modification which took things to a whole new darker level of acquiring attention.
Over the years I added cigarettes, drugs and alcohol to accessorize all of these ever-changing personas. Before I knew it, I was on a downward spiral into abusive relationships and addiction. Whether positive or negative, I would feed off of any kind of attention I could get.
At the age of 47, I was a full-blown atheist addict. Then, through an overdose, a door was opened; a veal lifted; an opportunity to choose either Life or death. That night, I accepted Jesus Christ into my heart. Soon after, I started praying and reading the Bible daily, then that turned into multiple times a day. Little by little I started to change...a new me was emerging. My outer appearance was no longer a meaning of existence. I now had Someone else to edify other than myself.
Over a 2 year period I shed my old skin. It all began with tossing out the razors..yep, hairy pits and legs! Next, no more bleaching or coloring my hair. Then I got rid of 95% of my wardrobe. Makeup was next, then perfumes. No more plucking eyebrows. Body jewelry removed. I also, removed all music, art and even friends that these personas were associated to.
I did cry often as I rid myself of these pieces of vanity. It was not easy at first because for 47 years I had been so programmed by wordly ways and thought that I needed these temporary (some permanent) bandaids to live life. But specific verses would continuosly be shown to me (1 Peter 3:3-4 & 1 Timothy 2:9-10). The conviction became just so great to where I needed to stop doing things my prideful way and just submit to His way! Now, I only had an audience of One and that's all that really mattered anymore.
But wait, there's more...I am now 49 and the biggest and hardest of the obstacles was still left...my hair!!! At the time of my salvation, I had already been growing dreadlocks for several years. They were again, part of a persona that I had developed while being part of the music industry. It was time to shave my husband's head and I had been toying with the idea of shaving my head for many months. I just kept struggling with letting go of this last part of the old me...it was my final mask and was frightened to make the final leap into, what I thought would be, weakness. Thank God my husband has always been so supportive and urged me to just finally get rid of my past. So zip, off the locs went! I did cry for a brief moment, not because of cutting them off but from when I touched my bald scalp I felt so free! It was finished! Praise the Lord, the old me was finally put to rest!
So there you have it...if you earnestly seek the Lord with all your might, submit, truly want to change from your past ways, ask for His forgiveness and He will give you all the strength needed to break the chains that bind you! There are just not enough words to express the way that I feel now but 3 words come to mind, "peace & true joy!" Thank you God for giving me a second chance! YOU are so beautiful...YOU are now my whole meaning for existence! I love YOU my God, my King!
Thank you for reading,
April, a humble servant of Christ
PS: I wanted to post the bald photo in order to share the transformation leading me into a deeper relationship with Christ. However, in public, I do wear a head covering as commanded in the Bible...but that will be for a different article. 😉✝️🙏
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But you are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, His own special people, that you may proclaim the praise of Him who called you out of darkness into His marvelous light. -1 Peter 2:9
Do not let your adornment be merely outward--arranging the hair, wearing gold, or putting on fine apparel--rather let it be the hidden person of the heart, with the incorruptible beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is very precious in the sight of God. -1 Peter 3:3-4
In like manner also, that the women adorn themselves in modest apparel, with propriety and moderation, not with braided hair or gold or pearls or costly clothing, but, which is proper for women professing godliness, with good works. -1 Timothy 2:9-10
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold all things have become new. -2 Corinthians 5:17
Therefore "Come out from among them and be separate, says the Lord. Do not touch what is unclean, and I will receive you." -2 Cornthians 6:17
But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him. -Hebrews 11:6
Therefore submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you. -James 4:7
And that repentance and remission of sins should be preached in His name to all nations, beginning at Jerusalem. -Luke 24:47
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But you are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, His own special people, that you may proclaim the praise of Him who called you out of darkness into His marvelous light. -1 Peter 2:9
Do not let your adornment be merely outward--arranging the hair, wearing gold, or putting on fine apparel--rather let it be the hidden person of the heart, with the incorruptible beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is very precious in the sight of God. -1 Peter 3:3-4
In like manner also, that the women adorn themselves in modest apparel, with propriety and moderation, not with braided hair or gold or pearls or costly clothing, but, which is proper for women professing godliness, with good works. -1 Timothy 2:9-10
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold all things have become new. -2 Corinthians 5:17
Therefore "Come out from among them and be separate, says the Lord. Do not touch what is unclean, and I will receive you." -2 Cornthians 6:17
But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him. -Hebrews 11:6
Therefore submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you. -James 4:7
And that repentance and remission of sins should be preached in His name to all nations, beginning at Jerusalem. -Luke 24:47
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